Well, here we are at the end of our third week. We are learning a little more everyday. This week I have to say has been running pretty smoothly. I was a little scared of it at the beginning because it was my first real week alone during the days. I feel like I have so much to talk about. Hope you will bear with me.
First off. I want to say a HUGE HUGE Thank you to all you readers out there. You have no idea how much your comments, emails and tweets have meant to me since Rowan has been born. I always love them but they have been so encouraging to me. You have no idea how many times I have been up in the middle of the night feeding, feeling so overwhelmed and just being so uplifted by reading your words of wisdom on jenloveskev. I think if I could offer any advice to a new mom it is to have a good support system and it doesn’t even have to be a real life one. haha. That sounds funny but I mean it. Just reading your comments have totally made me feel like I can do this and that I am not alone in any of this. Moms are a very powerful group of ladies and they offer so much love in person or thru the internet. So never feel like you are alone if you are a new mom. For one, I am here. I would love to hear from any of you. That is why I am trying to be as honest as I can about this whole journey. I think it’s a scary thing and its not always pure bliss. I hope people know its ok to have the lows as well. If you ever have any questions please feel free to email me or ask me on my formspring. I don’t know a heck of a lot but I would be willing to share any experience that I have had thru this whole thing. That really goes for anything. Parenthood, marriage, fashion or just life in general.
I have been asked a lot about her name. I saw Rowan I think in a baby name book months and months ago and I instantly added it to the running list of names I had been keeping on my phone. It just stood out to me as this strong warrior princess name or something. Like Liv Tylers character on Lord of the Rings. That kind of Princess. A kick butt kind of princess, who is beautiful with pretty dresses on a horse with a sword defeating evil. haha. Can you tell I really like Lord of the Rings? I am really geeky. Anyways I told Kev and over the next few months it just stuck. Kev started calling her Rowan and then we couldn’t imagine her any other way. Winter has always been a word I have wanted to use as a middle name. Rowan Winter just seemed perfect!
Rowan has been sleeping at night like a champ. We are able to transition her into her little bassinet beside our bed now. She still needs to fall asleep on us but as long as she is swaddled she will stay asleep in her bassinet. She even slept 6 hours straight the other night. Oh yeah! She usually does somewhere between a 4.5 to 6 stretch and then feeds and then goes to sleep again for another 3ish hours. During the day she wont sleep in her bassinet and needs to be held but we are working on that as well. We have to swaddle her in one of those straight jacket ones with the velcro. She is like a little Houdini if you don’t. With in seconds she will have both arms wiggled out and raised high as if she is saying “you can’t contain me, I am super girl!” hehe. It was important for us to get her to start sleeping on her own because although we are ok with co sleeping, I really just enjoy my time in bed with Kev. Its like the one place where its just us. No phones, no tv, no computer. We used to go to bed early all the time to just hang out and chat and cuddle. So I like having that space and that time. I think its important. Now that Rowan is here its not a lot of time but even if its for a few mins, its worth it to me.
I am really trying to stick with the motto of just Going with the Flow. We are not on any schedule or anything. When she is hungry we feed her, when she falls asleep we let her sleep. Its working for us and seems to be way less stressful than trying to fit ourselves into some sort of mold. The thing I am struggling with this week now that I feel like we are getting back to regular life, is how to get back to regular life. haha. Does that make sense? I was talking to my friend the other day and she hit the nail on the head when she said “its a weird feeling to have absolutely nothing to do, but not be able to get anything done.” Thats what it feels like. I really cant understand how you are able to clean, do laundry, cook, run errands or really do anything else with her. I know it takes time to figure it all out, but that is what we are working on this week…
haha that and still working out our thoughts on breastfeeding.