I feel like I am writing these post like every day. Its a little scary and super exciting how fast this is coming. 5 weeks!! (or sooner- fingers crossed). Last night we got diplomas that we graduated from Birth class. haha. Crazy! We have both really enjoyed our birth class. It always seemed like a special night during the week. It was dedicated time each week we spent together learning about the baby. It was fun. I am a little sad its over. We do have a baby basics class coming up and a breast feeding class- so its not completely over yet.
There have been some changes I have been feeling over the last week…
1. Sleep has gone out the window. I have been sleeping like 3 hours a night if that. I am so uncomfortable. Anyway I lay- it just feels like so much weight pulling somewhere from my belly. Last night I made a cocoon of pillows around every side of me. It was pretty funny BUT I actually slept thru most of the night. So Watch out Kev, me and my pillow army are taking over our bed. hehe. I can not wait to be able to sleep on my stomach again and Kev cant wait to snag my pregnancy pillow after for himself.
2. Nauseous! like whoa! I thought I was way past that 1st trimester feeling. But it is back with a vengeance. I do not like it one bit!
3. Appetite has gone thru the roof. For the last few months I have had a pretty regular appetite. I did not have any crazy cravings are anything. I would have to remember to eat because I really was fine just eating small meals here and there. For 2 months almost I gained no weight and even lost a few pounds. Now all the sudden I am so hungry all the time and if I don’t eat something then the nauseous feeling comes on hard.
and now a question for moms out there that have gone thru labor before. Did you listen to music while you gave birth? What kind of music? Did it change as you progressed thru your labor? I am trying to figure out music to put on a playlist on my ipod and I am wondering what will be best. Our birth class talked about slow calming music which I can see, but all I keep thinking about is when I was training for my marathon and what type of music got me thru that. Is there a place for very upbeat rhythmic songs? I am sitting here now listening to Florence and the Machine “Dog Days are Over” on repeat and thinking this would be an awesome song to distract and motivate me thru. Is it just different for everyone? I’d love to hear what you listened to! and any advice you have and what styles helped you and if it changed at the different stages.
Dear Baby Girl:
Oh boy is it hard to not tell the world what your name is! I have to consciously not say it when I talk about you to others, because we are so use to calling you by your name at home. We are so excited by it. Its so pretty!! Sometimes when strangers ask I want to blurt is out because who are they going to tell but I resist. I don’t know if I can make it to the end though. Hehe. Speaking of names. Mommy is going to be officially changing her name soon. When you are born you will def. be a Richardson. That is your Daddy’s last name. My maiden name is Lula. Well its still my last name. I never changed it because I am a Canadian Citizen and it was more hassle and costly than it was worth to have to change everything I had over- green card, passport, and everything else that goes along with it. I know your daddy cringes every time we have to sign papers at the hospital and I have to sign Lula and he signs Richardson. Its hard for me though. I love being a Richardson but I love being Lula too. Its more than just my last name. No ones last name is Lula. Its such a cool name. I mean a super awesome Fashion magazine is called after us! (hehe thats what I tell myself). All thru school I was not called “Jen” but “Lula” and then your aunts were called “little Lula’s.” We are a special breed. We have a “thats how we roll” motto and have crazy things happen to us.
Well tomorrow I get sworn in as an American Citizen (*tear) and yes technically I will have dual citizenship because Canada will always recognize me as a citizen, when I get sworn in tomorrow I have to pledge to give up all allegiance to foreign countries. How sad is that to say. I have always just been Canadian and thats been my thing. I’ve been a Lula and a Canadian and now all the sudden its changing and its a little weird. I know its not a big deal and maybe its my pregnancy hormones but its making me feel sad about it. Hmm I guess I don’t really know the point of this letter to you today. I just wanted to share what was happening with Mommy and how she was feeling. I just want you to be a little bit Lula and Canadian too. I dont want that to disappear. I want you to feel a special connection to Canada. I want you to know what real smarties are, and like Shreddies, and cherry blasters and eat chocolate popsicles (not fudgesicles) and like getting Shirley temples and treasures from the toy chest at Swiss Chalet. I want you to know what the lakes smell like in Northern Ontario, and chase Northern lights thru the sky. I want you to go to a Royal Winter Fair, and see the Snowbirds and go to The Ex. I want you to be proud of where half your family is from. Your mommy loves it there very much and she wants you to love it there just as much. One of the first gifts your Grammy gave us was a little hooded sweatshirt with a moose on it that says Canada. I can not wait till you fit into it.
Just a side note: I want to change my name to Daddy’s. I know I wrote that I am sad and I am a little but that doesn’t mean I don’t want my name to be Richardson either. I am excited for us to be our own little Richardson Family.
Love you little one!
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