http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenloveskev/4603158658/I hope this post isn’t too honest but it is what is on my heart this morning as I write this and one thing I am not is fake. Jenloveskev is a true story of my life and days so today the honest truth is that I feel like I am struggling kinda with this pregnancy. I hate to burst every one’s bubble that its all joys and rainbows but for me its been sort of difficult. I know its different for everyone but it just been really emotional and hard for me to adjust. It has nothing to do with our little baby girl coming. That part I am over joyed with- it is what is getting thru the pregnant part. I honestly CAN NOT WAIT for her to be here. I wish it was going to be tomorrow. Its just so hard for me to wrap my mind around being totally out of control of what’s going on with my body and to be taking pictures of myself everyday. It has honestly been a little hard for me.
I have always been an emotional girl but being pregnant is just over the top for me. I just want to be around my family and super close friends all the time. My family is so scattered around that its hard- I don’t get to see them and I miss them. My http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenloveskev/4603402627/ is also pregnant with her second little boy and it is so so exciting to be going thru this together but she lives in GA. I wish more than anything that we could be http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenloveskev/4603402647/ during the week and chatting and sharing stories with each other about how we are feeling and just laughing like we always do. I miss her a lot. She has been so supportive thru this whole thing though. I love her. She is always the first to call me the day of my doctors appointments, she is always there to listen and she is just so encouraging to me. I know she is there for me no matter what.
So that is what I am thankful for and really just wanted to write about today. I am so thankful for my husband, family and close friends. I appreciate you all so much. You mean the world to me and really are so supportive. I am also so grateful that we have moved to Albany. It was hard to leave Mass. We love it there but the friends that we are making here are genuine, caring and well just plain awesome and I know that we moved here for that reason. And to Kev thank you for taking care of me. You are the best husband and you are continually there to pick me up when I am down. You are my safe place, my comfort, and I always know everything is ok when you are near me. I love you.
Dear Baby Girl:
Only 5 more weeks till this school year is over! Then it will be you and me all summer. Daddy and me will be so much less stressed and will be able to spend even more time getting ready for you to come. This is my last week in my 2nd trimester. Crazy! I feel like we are over the hill and on the downward slope now till you come. The home stretch. I mean I know we still have a while but thinking back to the beginning we are a whole heck of a lot closer. We are getting closer to picking your name too I think. There is one we really like that we keep talking about. I want to tell everyone but it’s going to be our little secret until you arrive.
I have been really busy this week at school. Next week is the annual school art show and I have had so much work to do to get ready for it. Also Prom is in 2 weeks and have been doing all the decoration and invitations for that. It’s a lot of work but it will be fun. Your mom needs to find a dress that fits over you to wear!
Oooh we got you a super special present this week!!! I brought it home last night. We found the most perfect, most beautiful vintage pram for you. Its 50+ years old. Its so pretty. The lady that I bought it from has had it the whole time. She has strolled all 4 of her children in it and her grandkids. It is such a special and touching story, she was the sweetest lady. She gave me a hug yesterday when I took it from her and I told her I would sent her a picture of us with it when you were born. I hope to still have it when you have kids one day.
Your dad started playing this counting game with you. He likes to say “one” then poke my belly one time and see if you will kick back once. Then say “two” poke 2 times and then see if you kick back 2 times. He read it in the Expectant Father book. haha. Do you feel him playing it with you. Its pretty funny. You have been pretty good at kicking back, but then again I would kick back too if I was getting poked. haha. I hope I didn’t rough you up to bad when I fell this week. Sorry if you were scared. Just know that your Dad took extra good care of me and you to make sure we were all ok.
Ok I have written way to much in this post and letter.
Write again next week!