Week 21. Crazy. I can’t believe we have passed the mid way point and are on to the other half. One of my dear friends due date is today!! and one of my other friends just had her 3rd little boy when I was away in NYC last week. I am so happy and excited for them. I just wish we weren’t so far away from each other so we could all have play dates together (Hawaii, San Francisco and NY don’t really allow for easy get together). I have my next appointment next week so I have been trying to save up all my questions again to ask my midwife when I see her. I have started reading some new books. Which are giving me lots of questions to ask. I just started reading The Birth Book by Dr. Sears.
I have been struggling this week with some of the less joyous things that come along with pregnancy (accepting weight gain, changes in your body, trouble sleeping, weird dreams, constant nasal congestion and being extremely hormonal to name a few) I have been letting them get the best of me more that I would like to admit and I’m really trying to figure out the best solutions and ways to change my attitude about them, sometimes its hard thought because really you just don’t feel like yourself. Don’t get me wrong I love being pregnant, somtimes its just hard because there are a lot of things going on with you and your body that are totally out of your control. Kev is really good at keeping things in perspective for me and being there for support. He always makes me feel better and knows just what to say when I am having a bad day. I know I say it a lot but I am really proud of him!
Dear Baby Girl:
We have been constantly talking about names now that we know you are a girl. Its hard though because we want you to have the best name, there are just so many names out there to chose from. We have a few that we like a lot but we havent settled on anything yet. Did you know that your Grammy sends you presents in the mail every week? They are always addresed to you and inside hold little goodies, nothing huge but just little toys and things that you will like a lot. Yesterday she came back from Canada and brought you the coolest most awesome little hooded sweatshirt. It says Canada on it with a little moose. Its beyond cool. I kinda want to wear it! We also have been getting really cute girl gifts now from friends (The American Apparel onesies above is from our friend Nicole). Everyone is so sweet about it and all are friends are so excited to meet you.
I was reading this blog the other day and she was talking about a lady who was expressing how they brought up their kids and how she was sad that one of their sons was starting school. For some reason it really has stuck with me and made me think about some of the things I want to teach you. I totally loved what she wrote about being adventurous. I hope that is something we can show you as well. I want to take you on adventures and I want to go on fun outings and not be afraid for you to experience new things. Your Dad and me are pretty spontaneous people and we like having lots of fun, I really hope we can pass that free spirit on to you as well. I just want you to love life and be able to look back when you are older and think “I had a great childhood.” I want you to feel supported enough to be able to take risks and try new things. Your dad and me will always be behind you! We are actually really excited about taking you with us on our little trips and adventures. Your dad has started asking everytime we do things “now if we had the baby how would be do this?” then we try to figure out how we would work it. We are feeling more and more confident that are adventures are going to be even more fun and exciting with you along with us. You dad thinks you are super baby. He is so proud of you and he hasnt even met you yet. I just had to leave him for a day and a bit and he gets so sad when he knows he isnt going to be around you. He has been talking to you a lot lately? Do you hear him? I hope you can recongize his voice and are comforted by it.
We have started looking at nursery stuff for you now. Its a little over whelming, there is just so much stuff out there. I have some good ideas though. Your grammy is going to help me. We have only a tiny tiny room for you but you will fit in there just fine. It will be cozy and cute and I know you will love it!
Love you lots little one!