Welp, we are getting there. The count down it on! It’s weird to feel like a human ticking time bomb. Back when I was teaching, I would always have bad dreams the last few weeks of summer. I would dream about missing my alarm and being late on the first day, not being prepared, etc… Well, those dreams have started again. Not about school though, about birth. I woke up like 5 times last night stressing about things that I didn’t have ready yet. Do we have enough towels? Do we have a blanket to use right as they put her on my chest? What do I want to wear during labor at home? (Have I mentioned we are having a home birth?) I know if she came right at this moment none of those things would really matter and wouldn’t make or break anything, but it gets the best of me while I sleep I guess.
I am ready to be done. I’ve mentioned it before but I am not someone who loves pregnancy. I used to carry a lot of guilt around because of that but I’ve accepted it. I wish I was someone who made statements like “i’ve never felt sexier” but grunting when I put on my socks or the constant pressure I feel on my crotch is not what I define as sexy. I know Kev and I are blessed to be able to get pregnant. It is something I don’t take lightly, but I am still entitled to having feelings about it. It really is a miracle (and super science fictiony) that you grow a human inside of you, but I struggle with the journey. I would really just love to hold our baby girl and put this all behind us. I am so excited to meet her, to love her and for her to be a part of our family.
I pretty much wear some sort of combination of this outfit everyday. Jeans, a tank top, an open flannel or denim shirt, shoes and accessories. I was never pregnant in the winter with Rowan, so this is a whole new ball game for me. It is difficult!
Belt: Crew Cuts
Skirt: H&M (similar)
Minnetonka Boots: Zappos
Striped Top: H&M (similar)
Maternity Denim Top: H&M (similar)
Maternity Jeans: H&M (similar)
Boots: c/o Wanted
Glasses: c/o Lookmatic
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