We are half way thru week 36 now, on our way to 37. Time is seriously flying by so fast and then at times seems to be standing still. We went to the hospital last week to see our friends brand new baby boy. When we were walking in, I asked Kev if he had ever been to the hospital to see a baby before. He said he hadn’t. I think it took both of us back when we walked in that room and saw the beautiful little 1 day old baby. That was going to be us in 4 weeks. It def. put a lump in my throat. He was beyond perfect. We are so happy for our friends! We are about as ready as we are going to be I think with baby stuff. We got our car seat last week, the extra car seat base for the other car, our baby bouncer, sheets for her pram/bed and all her little things are getting washed as I type this. I also got all the things I needed for our hospital bag. The time is coming fast.
Dear Sweet Baby Girl
It’s almost 2am as I sit here typing this. Your daddy is sleeping in the other room. I can not sleep. I have not been sleeping a lot lately. Mommy is getting pretty uncomfortable and you make her have lots of strange dreams that she doesn’t really like having. I know its not your fault but it makes me not be able to sleep. My mind is also racing tonight. It is getting so close and I am excited but I am also scared. I hope that I can be everything that you will need me to be. I don’t know how to be a mom yet. Is it something that comes naturally after you are born? Sometimes I feel like I haven’t even figured out how to take care of myself yet- so how will I be able to do a good job with someone else. I am going to give it my all, but I worry sometimes at night that I wont know what to do. I hope you will just know how much we love you and that we really are so, so excited for you to come. We went to the Race Track yesterday and the whole day I kept wishing you were there with us. Enjoying the summer, the sun, and a nice picnic. Sometimes now it feels like we are missing something when we go and do things. That missing piece is you. We are ready for you to come on out and be a part of us. You are welcome to come out any time now. (hehe) We will be here anxious, excited and a little scared but filled with love and open arms.
We love you little one.