So Kev and I celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary yesterday. I can’t even believe how fast time has gone. I feel like it was just yesterday that we started dating. I am beyond blessed to have him as my other half in this life and can’t imagine doing anything, whether big or small, without him by my side. For the last 4 years we have taken a little picture on our anniversary day, lets recap…
Our wedding: 06.16.06. Key West, FL on a Royal Caribbean Cruise
Year one: O6.16.07. Oahu, HI. Spent the first year of marriage livin’ in Hawaii. Here we are in the park having a picnic and playing chess.
Year two: 06.16.08. Pittsfield, MA. We closed on our very first house on our 2 year anniversary. We spent the night eating chinese food on the floor of a house we had no furniture for. Amazing!
Year three: 06.16.09. Pittsfield, MA. One year livin’ at our house. Feeling like adults. Got dressed up and went out for a nice dinner. Not before flashing gang signs first. hehe.
and finally, yesterday…
Year four: 06.16.10. Cohoes, NY: Our Loft Apartment. Went and saw Mates of State play in Northamton, MA, 29 weeks pregnant with our little baby girl.
Dear Baby Girl:
This has been quite a week. It was very monumental for me. Mommy and Daddy celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary and today was my last day of work. I have been very emotional about it all. Being able to stay home with you is something I have always wanted but with the start of this week- I realized I was having a harder time with it than I thought. Being an art teacher has been a part of who I am for a very long time. I mean, while going to school, its what you say your profession is going to be when people ask. Then you graduate and actually become that and you are proud and glad to say what you do when someone asks. Today I closed that chapter. I am excited about starting the next one but honestly, I am a little scared too. Its hard not to be filled with thoughts about whether I am going to be good at being a mom or not. Will I love staying home? Will I feel valuable? It has nothing to do with my love for you because there is no question about that. I love you more than I ever thought even now and you are still just in my belly. I am just a little scared and nervous of all the changes and uncertainties. I don’t want to let you down. I want to be the best for you in every way possible. I hope that you will teach me to be a better version of myself. I am going to keep this letter simple this week because this is where I am. I locked my classroom door and said my goodbyes and I am moving forward. Slowly right now, but I know what you will bring to our lives will bless us more than I can even imagine at this moment. So to that I smile and hold my head high and look forward to this next chapter and next year of marriage to your Dad, who is the anchor in my life. Like the Mates of State song goes: “And I could be your Anchor, drop me in the bay and watch me hold you steady.”
All my love little baby girl,