So we are a little late with the post this week. Life has just been so busy. I say that every week but we are always just so busy. I get worried that I am not doing enough to prepare for the baby to come. I have stacks of books I want to read but when do I find the time? I am really excited for school to be over so that I can spend my summer reading and relaxing and taking bike rides to the pool. This leads me to what I wanted to talk about for today though. I got an email last week asking what I was doing about school after the baby was born. Well I haven’t yet told all you guys but I will not be going back to teaching after she gets here. June 16th will be my last day at my high school. I have resigned from my position as the Art teacher there. It was a hard decision and one that we didn’t take lightly, but we figured out that since I have to already drive an hour to school since we moved to NY and as a teacher I do not get paid a whole heck of a lot, the ratio between all that and then having to pay someone to watch her was not worth it. It will be an adjustment for sure going from being dinks (haha double income no kids) to 1 income but we are going to make it work. I think the time spent at home with her is well worth the sacrifice for us. Now I know this can’t be the case for everyone and I am not saying this is the right way to do it but for us this is what we want and what will work best for us. I am really excited to stay home but also to be honest a little sacred. I am not much of a home body. I love “home” but for me Kev is home so as long as he is with me then I would much rather be out on adventures with him then sitting on the couch. I am in no ways saying that being a stay at home mom is like sitting on the couch but I am a little worried about the adjustment from going from working to staying home knowing my personality.
I am really excited that I do have this blog though. It surrounds me with community and inspiration and gives me something to do that I really really love. I am excited to be a full time blogger and mom starting in september. The baby is due September 3rd the day before my 28th birthday. Now will I always just stay home? What are my thoughts for the future? I am going to focus on being a mom for a while and figuring that all out because lets face it I really don’t know what the heck I am doing but after that I would really like to focus more on making more stuff for my etsy shop, making artwork, getting more into making wedding invitations (have I ever mentioned that before? I make them all the time for friends and I just love it!) and then starting and finishing up my MFA. I would like to be able to take classes here and there and then maybe one day start to teach art at a college. I am not sure if I will go back to a public high school. You never know though? I am totally open to what the future holds for us. This is a time of great change, there is a lot going on for us and lots of new opportunities presenting themselves. I sang kev a song this morning that I remembered from my childhood (it included actions-hehe) but it is based on Proverbs3:5-6, I think that needs to be our courage as we go thru all these changes and be excited as we move on to this next chapter.
Dear Sweet Baby Girl:
Let me first just say Holy Cow! you have a strong kick. You even made our midwife chuckle on tuesday at the doctors appointment as we were listening to your heart beat. I have been day dreaming a lot about you this week. The weather is getting warmer and all I can picture is going for walks as a family and your dad and me talking about our days and then looking down at you and giggling at how cute you are and how much you have touched our lives. I can’t stop picturing your dad holding you and giving you kisses either. He is going to kiss you a lot you know. Haha. He already kisses are kitties a lot. It is very sweet- he is so endearing with affection and I can’t even imagine how much love he is going to give you. The students at school are all trying to get me to name you after them. It is very cute and they are all excited that you are coming. It will be sad to leave them but I couldn’t be more excited for our new journey with you. I got my very first mother’s day card in the mail from Grammy this week. It was a Mother-to-be mothers day card. It’s still funny to think that I am going to be a mom. Sometimes its a little overwhelming because I don’t feel like I am going to know what to do and I don’t want to screw things up but I hope you will always know that we love you and when we do screw up hope that the love will shine thru and we wont traumatize you to much. hehe
ok, back to day dreaming about going for walks. I have been obsessively searching for a vintage pram on eBay so that we can push you around in style. lol. I just love them and can only imagine how adorable you will look in it as we stroll you around the park. I am going to find the perfect one for you!